The blog life is demanding! I'm not too good at keeping this regular, but I'm giving it my best go! Sorry for the delay!
There's been something I wanted to write about for awhile, and it's kind of starting to nag at me...
If you're thinking of stepping out of the boat and pursuing your dreams, do it. 100%. Don't let money, or fear get in the way. I know thats easy for people to say, but I can tell you it's SO worth it. Stepping out of your comfort zone in life is no cakewalk, but its a heck of an adventure.
I left for Thailand with a very small amount of savings. Without God there is no way I could be doing what I'm doing. All the glory goes to him.
The week before I flew out, I got a bill in the mail for around $1000. It was for my car registration/insurance. I freaked! This was a large chunk of my savings, I didn't know what I was going to do. 3 days later, I checked the mailbox, and there was an envelope in there with my name on it, and the verse "...the righteous are as bold as a lion." I opened it, and it had the exact amount of money I needed to pay this bill. It blew my mind!
I've had stories very similar to this through out my life, but every time God provides, I'm still left in awe and wonder.
I've come to a place now where I feel like I have a kind of childlike vulnerability. Back home in Sydney, I was comfortable, and I became too self sufficient. I believe to some extent I had a bit of an ego. I had enough money to get almost anything I wanted, definitely everything I needed. I didn't need to rely on God for much.
After coming here, I have been stretched and pulled in every direction. I have learned so much about myself. Back home I had a large wardrobe, 46 pairs of shoes, and a nice new car. Here I have 4 pairs of shoes, 1 suitcase of clothes, and a 24 year old mitsubishi champ with no airconditioner. There's nothing wrong with having a new car, and lots of clothes, but God's brought me to a place where I've realised I don't need to find my worth and identity in those items, like I used to. I don't have much, but I'm happier than I've ever been. I know now that all I really need is God. So if I were to lose everything, I'd actually be fine because I'd still have God.
When I talk about childlike faith and vulnerability, I'm not talking about acting like a child or being immature. Emulating the faith of children, we should simply take God at his word. As children trust their earthly Fathers, we should trust our Father in Heaven.
Anyway! I feel like I've gone on a bit of a tangent. My main point was to dream big, and go after it. I know that sounds cheesy and cliche, but I really believe it. Don't let anyone's words or opinions stop you. A few people told me I was stupid for doing what I'm doing... I'm SO glad I ignored them.