10 YEARS

10 YEARS.I’ve always been a really transparent person. I like to be open, honest, and real with my life, and show that I have absolutely nothing to hide. On that note… he goes another blog post.

The news this week has been heartbreaking. We’ve lost 2 amazing people in the entertainment industry to suicide, as well as Avicii a few weeks ago. 

I think what breaks my heart the most is the thought that they lost hope. That they were so distraught that they thought that was their only option.

I think it hits me hard, because I’ve been there… but I’ve come out the other side.

When I was 16 I was diagnosed with depression. Not long after, I tried to commit suicide. It obviously didn’t work… and for that I’m so grateful. But at the time it was the only clear option for me. It all felt too much. I felt as though the world would be better off without me. 

It was then my amazing Mother took me to a counselor. All I remember him saying was “God will never put you through anything you can’t handle.” 

I remember that really resonating with me, because I remember thinking “Wow.. God must think I’m really strong if he thinks I can deal with this.” 

I felt like someone had faith in me I guess?

That night I went home, and I gave my life to God. I thought… what the heck. I’ll give this Christian thing a go. 

That was 10 years ago. And I can honestly say, my life has never been the same. 

I still struggle with anxiety, and post-traumatic stress, but the difference is, I have hope. I know I’m unconditionally loved by God, and I have a purpose. 

I never really shut up about God because I feel like I’ve struck gold! If you found a cure for cancer would you keep it to yourself? No. You’d want to tell everyone!

It’s the same for me with God.

I hope and pray more people will experience this freedom. 

That’s why it breaks my heart hearing this news… because there is hope. There is an answer and a way out. 

If you’re dealing with something similar, PLEASE seek help. Or even contact me. I would love to talk with you.